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December 7, 2013
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15 (who?)
They told me
I'm still growing up
I held a gun, had rockets flying over my head, and guarded the middle of nowhere
And I'm still growing up

I've been far away from home, carried my drunk friend back, stopped hating the girls who broke my head and worked without much sleep
And I still hate myself
And I still want out
And they tell me
I'm still growing up

A friend asked me if I wanted to start my life already
So I told him
So long as I can stay up to six in the morning with my friends
I'm alive

Yes, I'm ugly
No, I don't know a lot of cool places to go
Yes, I'm still a virgin after 19 years
No, I'm not funny

If you feel like shoving this stuff in my face, girl
Just remember
My friends and my music and my girls and my books will still be here
Long after your cookie cutter sitcom character of a boyfriend is gone

If you feel like shoving this stuff in my face, girl
Maybe you need something to do
Or someone to do
Maybe you need to reject someone
Just to feel attractive

I made a DJ set and I felt like Excision for a few moments
I wrote a few lines I'd like to tattoo on my skin
I've had a lot of people confide in me, girls calling me big brother
I even cooked a meal for myself
Maybe I'm not so hopeless after all

I think someday I will go to Shambhala
I think someday I'll trade this fat for strength
I think someday my name will be on the front of a hardcover
I don't think someday I'll fall in love and it'll be mutual
But fuck that

So I still have my video games and music and friends and energy drinks and girls and conspiracy theories and philosophy

They told me I'm still like this
Because I'm still growing up
I'll stick around to see what happens when this is all over
ATTN: Sent this again because I couldn't get it out of the stash for some reason. The layout leaves me confused.
PurpleRayRomeo Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is lovely <3
ReginaLicole Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is really something great. :)
hutch549 Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013
i love it :')
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